With being so busy, I never revealed why I have been so busy in the first place! So, here I will explain why the heck I haven’t been active on here or my channel!
So, the fabulous news to share and the little secret I have been keeping is I AM WORKING AT THE DISNEYLAND RESORT!!! I hired in March 31 and began training May 11. It has been a while since this whole process began and I am incredibly blessed to have a job with such an awesome company.
I am a Photopass Photographer for the Disneyland Resort, which means I take photos of guests in the parks. This can be with the lovable characters of the Resort or just around the different areas in the Parks. With my job, I am one of the few who has the privilege to move around the Resort. I alternate between working in Disneyland and California Adventure.
I can honestly say I truly enjoy my job, even though I’ve only been working there for a month. It is so much fun and I love interacting with the guests I meet. And being able to be at my favorite place is always a plus! Working for Disney has always been a dream of mine and to actually be working there doing something that I love is a huge blessing.
I do not take my job lightly and I try every day to make every single guest interaction and photo experience unique to that guest/group. I also understand the seriousness of my job, meaning it took something special in me to get this job. From my ability to be a storyteller, to being creative and knowledgeable in photography, to be friendly with guests, it all has helped me get this job and help me to succeed.
This job has also helped me to create great friendships and to experience moments that I only dream of seeing. I also have learned a great deal about myself as an individual and as a photographer. I can understand my strengths and weaknesses in both parts and it helps to develop my sense of creativity. It has also helped me to come out my shell more and tap into my true extroverted self. I am very pleased with myself and this tremendous accomplishment.
Hopefully soon I can write more about being a Photopass Photographer and the joys of working as a cast member for the Disneyland Resort! And if you so happen to find yourself at the Happiest Place on Earth, come find me and say hello! 😀
So, it has been about a month since my ex broke up with me. I am finally stable enough emotionally to write about it (or maybe I am just not being lazy anymore LOL). I am not one to air my whole issues online and bash him. That is rude and uncalled for, no matter how bad it was. But a general scope on things is there were things we could not agree on, that he felt strongly about and it just was not working out. It was a constant dilemma for him in our 3 and a half years together and it caused unnecessary tensions. In that instance, he felt it was necessary for us to break up.
I disliked the events that happened, since it happened within weeks after graduating college and I was thrown into an emotional roller coaster of problems that resulted me in having health issues. I have never felt so low about myself and the feelings I felt were indescribable. The amount of stress this event put on my body, my mental state, and spirit is life changing and it has left a battle scar.
After much thought and prayer and thousands of pep talks and inspirational videos, I have considered it was best we did not get back together and that us breaking up was the best thing for me. I don’t want to make it seem like he was horrible, because he isn’t. We had many great times during our time together and made wonderful memories. Besides the last month, being with him was good. But I cannot let go of what happened and the things that were said. I have no horrible feelings toward him and I wish him the best, I really do. And I hope at some point in the future we can be friends. We are both at an understanding and are doing our best to deal with what happened. But now I must do what is best for myself. It is time I focus on myself now, after 3 and a half years of giving, it is time to focus on me. With that being said, it definitely has changed me for the better.
So now that I am single, now what? Well, I am taking life one day at a time. I gave myself plenty of time to grieve over the loss of my relationship and found so much love and support from my family and friends. I am learning to love myself and getting to know who I am. Being with someone for a long time, it seems I have lost who I was, and I have to find her. So, now I am on the path to self-discovery.
I’ll admit, I was so scared to be single. I mean first I graduate college after 5 years at CI. I turned 23 years old shortly after that. Then my boyfriend breaks up with me. There were a lot of changes occurring before my eyes and I was terrified. Terrified if I would ever recover. If I would find a job or if I am strong enough to handle life. Or what if I never found love again, or if I did, what if it goes on for years for him just to end it suddenly? These constant thoughts ran through my head, sometimes they still do.
But I have realized that this is a brand new beginning for me. The possibilities are endless and I have so much to offer in this world. So, on July 19, I declared it would be the start of My New Adventure. I finally received my diploma and life was looking up. I saw my best friend that I hadn’t seen in 5 years that day and went to Disneyland and met with my cousins. I got a “I’m Celebrating” button where I had the cast member write A New Adventure on it. I watched the parade and fireworks and sung my heart out to all of them. I had amazing pep talks with my mom and cousins and friends. That day was pure magical, that was when I felt life was going to be alright.
I still have my moments where I get sad. That is normal to feel that way. And maybe it isn’t the person I necessarily miss but it was a “habit” to have him there and sometimes habits are hard to break. I miss him at times but I think I’m coping more with the loss of a lover, a friend, and stability in my life. I am being extra kind to myself and doing all the things I love to do. I am promoting self-love because after a break up, it is necessary to constantly feed yourself love. I am trusting God that it is time for new changes and that He must be up to something for all these doors closing. I know there are so many more doors for Him to open as I walk down the hall of life. I am anxious and rather curious to see what awaits me. I am going to Keep Moving Forward, as Walt Disney says.
I know I’ll keep smiling through and that life will turn around for me. I am learning that I am an incredible person and I have so much love to share with people. My happy ending will come to me soon. I get to do all the things I have wanted to do but couldn’t. The world is literally at my fingertips. I am going to take advantage of every opportunity and create a life I have always dreamed of. I will continue to work on myself and be myself because God isn’t done with me yet. In fact, He is just getting started! 🙂
Thanks for reading! Feel free to share any break up stories or ways you got over a break up and ex.
“To all who come to this happy place, welcome. My blog is your blog. Here, age relives fond memories of the past. And here, youth may savor the challenge and promise of the future!” Ahh yes, I just tweaked up Walt Disney’s Disneyland Welcome Speech into my own! Thanks, Walt!
So, welcome to my blog! This blog is a glimpse into my life and what I am feeling. Not that I think I am the most interesting person in the world (can’t compare to that Dos Equis guy!), but I do think I can be interesting and fun and sometimes humorous, although people hardly laugh at my jokes, ha ha! And I thought it would be fun to share my life experiences with the world, and that includes YOU! We all have experienced things in life, no matter how great or horrible, and it is nice to be able to relate to others on deeper levels. It is, I believe, a part of the human experience. This blog serves as a platform to share my human experiences with all of you!
I bet you are wondering, “who is this Tiarah gal and what the heck should I care about her?” That is fair, so I will introduce myself a little and hopefully reveal more about myself as the days go on. I am Tiarah Tarae Jibri. I am 23 years old, about 5 feet tall (or short depending on the day), and recent graduate from California State University, Channel Islands majoring in Studio Art. Within that, I am studying photography, animation, and illustration. I am starting my own photography business and am going to be crafting up the next graphic novel! I live in Southern California, born and raised! And from my introduction up there, I guess you figured I like Disney. “Like” is an understatement; I LOVE Disney, practically obsessed, ha! I am also a nerd of all trades and proud of it! In my free time, I love being with my family and friends. You can usually find me at the beach secretly being a mermaid or at a theme park (preferably Disneyland Resort and Universal Studios Hollywood) with my camera (#TeamCanon) in my hand. I love long walks down Main Street USA with a churro in my hand and casting spells through Hogwarts.
I hope this blog is a pleasure for you to read and follow along! And also, feel free to comment or ask questions! I want to stay connected with all my followers and love to hear what you have to say!