One year ago, my life changed dramatically. I was a fresh college graduate, I became single, and my world was disappearing before my eyes. I remember exactly how I felt the summer of 2016. It was one of the worst summers ever but little did I know it was a blessing in disguise.
Crying. That is what I did around this time. I cried so many tears. The unforgettable pain I felt in my heart because of the break up was creating darkness around me. And yet, I look back today and smile because I made it out of it and am stronger today for it. I am not saying I enjoyed it because I didn’t. But it did teach me a lot about myself and has shaped me into the person I am today.
If it weren’t for the break up, I would not be where I am today. Although I am still figuring out my life and getting everything back on track, I feel I am farther in a mental state. I grew up and saw the world for what it was. I began a clean slate. As much as it pained me, my ex putting me through hell and breaking up with me was probably the greatest blessing in disguise.
I was angry, with him, with God. I didn’t understand why I had to be put through this. Now I see. Everything that happens is needed for the next step in God’s plans for us. I firmly believe I needed to go through that so I can learn what never to allow a man to do again. To understand what I really want in a man. To allow myself to be free and in the future, find someone who is willing to love me for me without the risk of me changing for him. And to achieve my goals and dreams with no one holding me back. I don’t think I could have accomplished what I have with my ex. And for that, I thank him.
I was afraid of the future. I had to enter adulthood and I felt I was stepping into darkness without a hint of light to guide me. I did bump into the wall and received a few bruises along the way but now I can see the light at the end of the tunnel. It is coming and I am excited.
It has been one year since my break up and I can say I am so happy it happened. I know what I want in a future mate and I am able to truly focus on my dreams and goals. I mean, I am working for Disneyland Resort, something I have wanted for years! It is my stepping stone. And sure I am still single while my ex is with his new girlfriend but I don’t care. I am happy and know that the right guy will come along in due time. When God feels I am matured enough and at a decent point in my life for Him to bless me with my soulmate.
So for those of you who recently broke up with someone you love or encountering a new journey ahead of you, let me be the first to tell you from experience that YOU WILL SURVIVE! You will come out of this stronger than you think you will. It may seem like a rough patch now but I can guarantee you the storm will pass.
And now that the storm has passed for me and the waters are calming down, I can enjoy the effects of the storm and see the rainbow slowly peeping through. Your time will come. Give yourself time and constant love and soon your rainbow will appear, too.